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Creatively Challenged

I stare blankly at the computer screen.
Somewhere deep within I feel a pinch,
I hope to unlazify my grey cells
But they refuse to budge an inch.

Then I look within myself again
And search for that source of humor,
Which was there once, I believe
And wonder if it was just a rumor!

And to find a story somewhere, I hope
In the faces of people I look around
Each of them has a tale to tell.
But nowhere are my instincts found.

I stare deep inside within me,
And all I can find there -
Is a soul stuck in a time warp,
And a big void everywhere.

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