Random Ramblings

I stare blankly at the computer screen. Somewhere deep within I feel a pinch, I hope to unlazify my grey cells But they refuse to budge an inch. Then I look within myself again And search for that source of humor, Which was there once, I believe And wonder if it was just a rumor! And to find a story somewhere, I hope In the faces of people I look around Each of them has a tale to tell. But nowhere are my instincts found. I stare deep inside within me, And all I can find there - Is a soul stuck in a time warp, And a big void everywhere.

Finally ... The book is out ... It is available at - http://tinyurl.com/book-khareedo  (Flipkart) http://tinyurl.com/nikesh32  (Pustak Mahal) Do grab your copy soon, in case you haven't already :) It will be in Crosswords and Landmarks in some time (maybe some time later this month) 32.

Who am I - A frog in a well who wonders, That this is the best place, And asks if the ocean is any better? Or a deer in the forest that knows, That it has but limited control Over his the fate that awaits? Or a bird soaring up in the sky With the world as its playground And dreaming to soar even higher? I wonder ... Is there is a different answer for What I am and What I want to be?

Where is that world, That I once thought I would make With my dreams, That kept me awake. With my thoughts And that fire within. And those crumbs of motivation Igniting the will to do something. And that thing resembling faith Placed high up there, And when I look around I find it nowhere. All that remains is just a void That world there is no more, That utopia exists no longer, It is now just an eyesore.

Finally ... The new cover page of my book ... Hoping things get rolling soon and it is out Maybe sometime next month Super Excited, though it might be a bit far fetched ! (... and wondering how to manage promotion on a shoestring ... er... zero budget!) BTW ... Do join the Facebook group & follow me on twitter (links on the sidebar) (self promotion!)

Of late, I have been blogging very infrequently (and most of it is about me "not blogging" ... so in real terms I have been blogging more infrequently than it appears to be) Maybe, I thought that I can jot down few random points about random happenings around me - - I loved the movie - "Inception". I am increasingly tempted to believe that life is just a dream within a dream! Maybe, that this world is my totem and that it goes on continuously, is a proof that life is a dream. - I watched Udaan (all alone!). Loved the movie.   Few points (apart from plot, performances, narration etc) that added to this liking are -   music that gels with the pace and theme of the movie (including "motu master" song), poems (especially "joote kahan utaare the" - have copy pasted it below in Appendix -1), realistic settings (un-karan joharish sets) etc. I would love to call it a "Taare Zameen Par" for teenagers. - The "w" key of my lap

This is not what this post is about. This is a question, the answer to which I am trying to find.

Some quick updates on my book Somewhere @ Nowhere. - I had self published it through www.pothi.com  around 3 months ago and the feedbacks have been quite encouraging. - Meanwhile, I got to know about a contest being run by one of the leading publishing houses in India and entered it ... and the book was selected for publication! - So the book should be out in markets shortly (maybe in 1-2 months). Hoping to see it in the Landmarks and the Crosswords soon. Keeping my fingers crossed ...

That was when I saw her. She had almost missed her train. There was another in 8 minutes, but she always preferred to catch this one only. It was a long ride - Mira Road to Churchgate and it took nearly an hour to reach there in a fast train. More than three hours a day she spent in commuting. It could have been more had her home not been near the railway station. I had moved to Mumbai recently and was still trying to catch up with its pace. I was yet to get accustomed to the local trains. Slowly and steadily I would. Sometimes I wished that I stayed near my office, but it was too expensive. So I chose a distant suburb, trying not to dig a hole into my pocket and screwing my life inside stuffed trains. This continued for few weeks. I always noticed her getting to the station, catching the train and alighting at the destination before briskly walking to her office. Mine was nearby, but that was it - I never manged to talk to her. She was somewhat reclusive and I didn't have any p

Individuality - "The aggregate of qualities and characteristics that distinguish one person or thing from others; character"  (Source - The first result on google search for - "individuality + definition") So, I assume that it is fairly a constant thing which is with shapes a person's thoughts and probably his actions (unless under some kind of duress). If I had to give some kind of physical form to it it would be fairly solid though not completely, as it is subject to change by effect of some external influences, which maybe somewhat significant influences (after all, this is the only way an almost solid object can change its shape). I was just wondering that what happens in case of a person's individuality is a fluid or is expected to be a fluid. In this case a person's individuality will be flexible - probably not defined at all. And, if the vessel is a relatively powerful object which can think on its own & has a right to dictate wha